What is love? ♥

Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. I say, fall head over heels. Find someone you can love like crazy and who will love you the same way back. Forget your head, and listen to your heart. Cause the truth is, honey, there's no sense living your life without love.. But you have to try, cause if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.

To myself

I feel so bad right now...

I left him go, my best friend.

He was too much important for me. I need him.
He just suddenly appeared in my life and he change it.
For good of course. 
No one says life is easy. It wont ever be. 
Because that would be perfection.
And perfection doesnt exist. 

Told him wasn't my intention, just wanted  not to make him sad.
(Im sorry, really sorry) but he wont be there anymore.

Tired for the same dramma story, the same reason, the same tears...

Maybe... he was right all the time and I didnt want to admit it.
I  can almost see it. My heaven, my paradise.

Too fuzy for the darkness and my tears. 

But it is there, somewhere.

Anyway,  I wish I can change everything.
I really wish it. Try it again
"Hello, this is me... and no, I dont like to share my life."
Didnt fall in love this time, but he just had to leave because of my fault.
Now? To no one, just empty words.
Hide, hide it more, more, more!

Maybe tomorrow could be so late. 

ps: Never give up, please, never do it.


Once upon there was a girl... and ... she didn't make it.
Change the ending. 
Okay.
This girl was smart and she realized that sometimes she wouldn't make it, but trying harder, she will.
We don't know what is her next move. Wish she is okay. Lonely, but okay.
She will be stronger right?
Oh yes, very much. She just learned an important life lesson. She will be... soon or later.

Professor, see you on extra!!!

Maybe it wasn't my career. Maybe.

But Im just so happy for be there. Today, at the festival of my sister I saw my teacher.

He introduced me all his family. A lovely one :D

He laughed when I said: I'm sorry I was mad on your exam, but that girl who sustituted you made me get angry... Professor, see you on extra!!! 

I was carring letters from friends and today I just think about printing a picture of my group of our conference to deliver him on extra 

(I made a letter to him too)

I didn't have the letter, just the picture. He was grateful and showed it to his family.

It's okaay, don't worry about the exam. You are very intelligent. 

Teacher, I don't worry about yours because I loved your class. MATHS make me get worried!!!

hahaha....you will do it!

Is an unbelieveable teacher...

Hey... IM BEAUTIFUL!

Until today I realized the truth: I was and I have always been beautiful.
I was feeling like the ugly duckling who was alone... until he finds out the truth,
Bad people want to make you feel bad, to have a wrong idea what you really are. 
Until today I understand. I have never been stupid, but failures make you think that. 

Look at me, 18 years old, smiling and I don't worry anymore what people would think about me, about how do I look for them, about my desires and decitions, about my values. 
I am not thin as other girls, but I have lost 8 kg these moths, making exercise, visting a doctor and eating vegetables! A healthty way to change!

I  don't have a boyfriend, but someday it will happen because of my heart, because of my soul. I am a good girl, as I have always been. I maybe could be a drammatic because  of my feelings. A sensible girl. But I can say that even I have nightmares about the past, I can stand up and carry on with my life. I don't need people who would  make me feel bad, who would make fun of me, who would hate me maybe because for girl I am. I can't change myself. I am not mean and I won't ever be a stupid plastic "wanna be" I see everyday. For being beautiful you need more than just a pretty face. No, I don't talk about money. That is useless. You can't buy true friends, a lovely family and best experiences just with that. Your personality is what matters, your heart.

I found that out when I got in college. People was honest, love to study and I was finally accepted and there wasn't bullying anymore. Well... just a stupid ex-classmate I  have who believes himself better than God. My best friends are older than me, they help me out to have a new perspective about what I can do. EVERYTHING I WANT. I can be a leader! :D

 If something goes bad... you can do something else!. Things happen because for a reason. 
Straighten up Andrea! And keep that unbelieable and silly personality you have! UNIQUE, FUNNY, LOYAL AND GOOD HEARTED!! What else do you want for me? ;) Haaa!! 

One day

One day I had a friend. One day I was important for him. One day I felt in love. One day he was gone.
I was terrible devastaded for that. I felt guilty, pain and shame. So intense. He didn't talk to me anymore. He was trying to avoid me over and over again. Then, I stopped believe on that. No more. I heard that love was a game. That you can't win until you have risked everything. If you loose a game, you have to play again. I stopped playing because I was tired of loosing. I know If I hadn't quit, maybe I have won it. The day I give up, the day a part of mine died. That part who loved to loved over and over again. But no more, gone too. My heart is like a child, always wants to get what it wants. Its too painful to loose. Maybe I wasnt strong enough as I though I was. I guess time will heal my damages. One day I will be okay again and then, maybe I could try again.

Dont forget that...ever

Nothing can make you fall, because you are bigger than the obstacle and stronger.
Life is not easy, theres nothing free. If you want something, you have to reach it by yourself

Because you will be trying and trying is the only way to get it.

Maybe you will fall the first time, could be, because we are not perfect but if you continue, you will do it better

Dont let your fears and sadness affect you...with all of that, you will do it 

Opportunities are just once. Dont let them go, ever. Focus on that, and reach it 

remember that,

i will be cheering you to carry on!

In good days

In bad days

always

So, every morning when you wake up and every night when you sleep you will remember that you are able of all nothing impossible (as nike! ) Dont worry too much because one day when you would be older, you will realize that you miss a lot of time doing it instead of being with your family, friends...

with fears...

do it!!!!

My crazy dreams

I want to do crazy goals. Most of my classmates wait anxious to have their card to get drunk in a pub. Me, to join greenpeace! I want to bath a penguin and to swim with dolphins. Crazy? Just a little bit. Hahaha. I want to get my certifications of languages. To travel around the world to visit everywhere. Finish a career. To fell in love and to get married with a handsome lovely and respectful husband. I want to have kids. I want to live in Italy! If not in Australia or Europe. I want to be a godmother of a street kid. To have a good job but most important, I want to take care of my parents and to have a great relationship with my sister. I want to be happy. When i grew up... I will be happy like today being me:crazy,with a big smile in my face and full of love. That is what I want. 

What If I dont get it?

Pfff.... Im so scared to fail at the University. What if I took i bad decision? What if I dont get it? Its too difficult for me and my teachers are bastards. That's it. Im terrified in fact but i want to advance.  I want to get it, even its so hard for me.I will try with all my heart. I will, really.

My favorites songs!

1 Switchfoot-Dare you to move:
I will always fall, but I won't give up. Even there are a lot of people looking at you, waiting for your  mistake. I must stand up, because Im still alive


2. Iris- Goo goo Dolls/ I don't want to miss a thing
That song is just amazing and romantic like i dont ́t wanna miss a thing, another hit!!! :D





3. Grégory Lemarchal-De temps en temps: Pfff... the perfect song. I want a guy exactly like him. 

About People

People is not the same always. We can't change them. Even if we try. They are what they are. Different people, different mind.You will find people that hurt you.....but people you'll die for. 

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Death, soon or later

I have been thinking about life and death. Today I was in a funeral and it was so hard for me. We, especially we teenagers, don’t appreciate life until a tragedy happens.

I felt terrible and I in shock. Until that moment I understood everything. We think like if we could be the three I: immortals, invincibles and incredibles. So stupid isn't it?
We think life is forever, health is for the rest of the life.... but we are blind because in no matter when we can loose everything once we had. Special moments, youth, family.... life.


How important is life for you? We dont have the rest of ours life insured. Life its to short. So, dont regret about what you have done, about your mistakes, hates, jealousy. Forgive everyone and spend what you have doing the best of you. Always. We will be dead soon or later.

True friends

A really fun friend

is someone with a 

bright smile on her face

A light spring in her step

and a true sweetness

in her spirit

Have you ever? (friendship)

Have you ever felt terrible because you crew it up? Well.. It happends constantly to me.
The worst mistake I ever made was to lie to my parents. I have betrayed my parents just a few times, but it was enough to overcome as a person. Their confidence it's everything to me. Maybe I can't express it as I'd like. Let me try to explain it.

Confidence it's another value I've learned in my life. As I said, people will tell you the deepest secrets you'd never imagine. You have to listen. Listen selflessly.

Like in friendship:
Sometimes you will lose your mind , sometimes your friends will drive you crazy. But no matter what happends because a true friend should be there, with you when you really need him. And of course, this is mutual. In the best friendships must have confidence and loyalty. Always.

Once someone said me: "It is not easy to be a good friend. The friendship must be cultivated in every single moment my dear. So, take your time to be a true friend, because it is what really worth"

Since that day, I try to be a better friend and fortunately I have not betrayed someone's confidence anymore.

“A friend is someone you can be alone with and have nothing to do and not to be able to think anything to say and be comfortable in the silence”-Sheryl Condie

Mom, what's your secret?

My reason to wake up everyday is my family.
I love it. We are really close every single time. I can't live without them. They make me feel stronger. Yeah, of course we have "our moments".
Moments to be together, moments to smile, moments to cry. What happend to a family that fight everyday? What happend to them? It's simple: it's a destoyed family. It's a family dinsintrated. I can't imagine living that reality. My parents have almost 25 years together and during that time I have never seen an argument between them.
They say: "Well, we have never left our friendship. We are best friends. As best friends we talk, we share secrets, we are loyal (my dad have never had an affair, he is really proud about that) and when we have differences, we don't yell. Just talk."
They say that the secret is talking. Talking makes their lifes easier.